We are one body

I realised that making true friends in Melbourne is not easy. It is difficult to trust people here as well as to be myself. They are many discrimination here. People pretend to be cool, to attract the opposite gender. People make friends for the wrong reason like so that they could use you. People smile to you and behind your back backstab you. People act like someone else. It is difficult to trust. And i kind of know why it is like this and the solution which i think helps.

People need family but what is a family? It is called a family when there is love and when we are free to be ourselves. It is called family when our family really cherish us and know us. But what is true love? And how can it be in a family?

Many families love each other but there are still hurts in it. When there are hurt in it how can they love again? It is quite hurtful when someone you really love hurts you. Can they trust again? How does it work? And how can they go to a deeper trusting relationship? Is it worth when your family that hurts you one day pass away and you feel the grief? How does it work? And wouldn't most people feel vulnerable or have many defensive mechanism to stops them to be who they really are?

Do we need to be really afraid because it seems like we are doom.

In my opinion, i think the answer is God. God is the Way, Truth, and Life. He is the Light of the World of darkness, lies, falsehood and sin. And what destroy our lives is actually sin. Sin destroy relationships with each other as well as pull us further from the source of life which is God. The Word of God helps us to be free from sin so that we could be free! Lust is a lie. Anger cause destruction. Unforgiveness cause hatred. Do we need to be good to be accepted? What happens if one day we suck again? Doing something for people and tell them that they do it for them makes people feel worthless. There are many ways of destruction and one way of life. But how can we do it alone? And are we alone?

As catholic, the Eucharist, the body of Christ is very important to us. God give us His real body so that we could have eternal life. Actually it should be the basic of our identity, the foundation of who we are. If you spend time in the Blessed Sacrament, or attend daily mass, this bread of Life actually heals us, transforms us from sin and unite us Catholics together because the bible says we are one Body, one Body in Christ and we do not stand alone. And in an environment of falsehood, we are vulnerable. But in an environment of truth and love, we are free and our esteem soar like an eagle. And God do unite us when we stick to Him.

But in order for that to happen, we always need to carry our Faith with us. Only when we believe God can work in our lifes. When we connect with God it is even better. Many things which is impossible in my life went possible because God just snap His fingers and it happens. God will pull us out of sin. God will show us direction of anything of Him. Which is Life. Which is true possible unconditional love. But we need to trust, ask, and take action. Because of Him we have hope. Because of Him we have a family that accepts us! Because of Him we do not need to be afraid because we are one body of righteousness no matter where we are! We are never alone and vulnerable when we know who we are.

Hmm, i think it is dangerous when i found out that some people i know reading my blog. I think i need to becareful on what i have to write. Especially when i just went back to kl, my younger cousin sister opened my blog in front of me and read it in front of me. Yes, she made me speechless. Well, i must say that i really enjoyed my trip back in Penang. One of the reason was because i get to connect with people whom i know dearly. And it made me more humane and giving.

There is no doubt that i am a little nervous of going back to Melbourne even though i had already been there for a year for now. It would definately be a long ride. Hopefully i get the right taxi to the right destination. My stubborness always cause me to take the wrong transportation thus the wrong destination. Hopefully i am obedient to listen to the taxi driver this time. As well as beware of the con man who likes to talk nonsense and cheat my money. It is really a complicated world. And it could be another way round as well. If i just follow the taxi driver.

Don't worry. Seek God!

Hi people. This is about don't worry about the things beyond our control that we could not understand. I understand that this bible passage is very long but if we are in situation like what i just mentioned, it helps if we read and understand the Word carefully and the video would help us to understand better. Do sing along with the video as a pray to God. He is Emmanuel. He is here and He is at where we are right now. Just acknowledge Him.

Luke 12:22-28
22 He said to [his] disciples, "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life and what you will eat, or about your body and what you will wear. 23 For life is more than food and he body more than clothing. 24 Notice the ravens: they do not sow or reap; they have neither storehouse nor barn, yet God feeds them. How much more important are you than birds! 25 Can any of you by worrying add a moment to your life-span? 26 If even the smallest things are beyond your control, why are you anxious about the rest? 27 Notice how the flowers grow. They do not toil or spin. But I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of them. 28 If God so clothes the grass in the field that grows today and is thrown into the oven tomorrow, will he not much provide for you, O you of little faith? 29 As for you, do not seek what you are to eat and what you are to drink, and do not worry anymore. 30 All the nations of the world seek for these things, and your Father knows that you need them. 31 Instead, seek his his kingdom, and these other things will be given you besides. 32 Do not be afraid any longer, little flock, for your Father is pleased to give you the kingdom. 33 Sell your belongings and give alms. Provide money bags for yourselves that do not wear out, an inexhaustible treasure in heaven that no thief can reach nor moth destroy. 34 For where your treasure is, there also your heart be.

hold on

Hmm.. yesterday was a rather depressing day for me. I was home by myself the whole day because the weather was 45 C. Being alone and hot in the room without fan or the air conditioner was not a good place to be. Going to the living room, where the air con is, wasn't pleasing either where a group of korean there spending a good time together while i'm being ignored. Common isn't it? but it's not pleasing. I wasn't in a position to make a move, that is what some of my friends would ask me to do. Being a human being sometimes i need to admit that i am weak. Or at least people should see that i think. And the only thing i could do is to go online, read, or watch the tv. No one i could talk to is online, i done reading, and nothing nice is on the tv. Just depressing.

I did clean my bathroom. Not done but most of it. I did wash, dry, and iron the clothing. But after doing all those, i was feeling, what now? I tried calling people for dinner. The good news is i got to call a friend! Nelson. A very short dinner because he has exam today. Even though it is a short time it satisfy my thirst of someone to be there. Nelson asked me, why do i look depressed. I thought i wasn't and i told him that i'm not. But now i could see why he asked me that. The reason i said i'm not was because in the midst of all depression, i was having faith in God. You may ask, having faith in God in what? Hmm.. i don't know.. just have faith because He knows better than me. So by waiting a little bit, here i am with my another good friend right now. Sitting in the library using the computer while the weather is 40 C plus outside. He willing to accompany me out in the hot weather to look for a new place to stay. And we would most probably have lunch and play indoor basketball afterwards. I might accompany him to cut his hair while might accompany him to look for a part time job for this semester holiday. Now, how pleasing is that?

Honestly, before writting this blog, i did not see all these things coming. But, now i could see that God work in wonders. Stick to God just a little bit more and he would provide. When you think you are being depress and no way out, by holding on to God, who knows, you are one having one more step to stepping out the shadows of darkness?

Battle and Grow

Recently, i find trusting God was rather difficult. I can see the reason why though. The reason is, i was facing obstacles that i need to face. It is difficult to walk alone in this world. Sometimes i ask myself, how am i to learn something that i do not know, that i got dragged in a problem that i do not know and it is killing me. As if i could not get out of it. It sounds easy to say, go to God, look for help. But at a situation of being isolated with my mind being screw up, it is rather difficult. I must say, i was at a situation of being tested how strong my faith is. Because that is the only thing i could do with my mind being screwed up. And i am always being pulled away by the only thing that i could rely on, God. Satan, the media, and my weaknesses would always try to stop me from holding the grip.

So i'll share some of my top secret, my problems that i faced. (1) I like a girl recently that i am crazy over here that i felt for temptation. It is difficult when i need love and i head to her facebook just to see her. Funny(Most girls would be shock to hear me say this because i'm choosy) (2) My bed, my tv, my computer, my bathroom stops me from doing the things that i should and could do. (3) Assignments and exams kills my mood, tears me down, stick me to my bed and internet. (4) Trying to get hold of God in all these midst. (5) Trying to get people connected with the stubborness of people. Don't get me wrong, i don't force people. (6) Being rejected by old mates at uni. (7) Finally being lonely, go to play basketball with a group of people whom i do not know and competes.

Well, i must say this is not an excuse, and i know that it is not fair to let it out to the readers. But at times, i felt that i'm a failure. Many people in Melbourne lose the battle. Many cool, rich or popular ones won the battle. Not actually. Most of them lost. Think about it, who would let u rely in your most desperate need in a city like Melbourne. But i must say that i am quite blessed with a resting place at every friday's church meeting which gives me hope. As i was around St Francis church in Melbourne, i had seen people cry because of no way out. Well, i myself cried there once in church and i could not stay longer in church because the church in Melbourne closes early, that someone chases me out. Lol.

My conclusion. I am grateful of this experience. Even though sometimes it could be bad to a point of death, if i choose the wrong path. Or i fail my subjects and lost my chance of career. Most people lose the battle i must say. There is one guy i know would not trust anyone anymore. But i must say, i learn. Not to be perfect, but to who i could rely on. And i think this is the fundamental of life. Relying on God that all good things comes from Him and through Him. Hopefully i could discover more. Cheers.

Technology

Yesterday, i began to understand why advance country does not live as happy as the developing or poorer countries. Technologies and the advancement of the countries has taken away many of the human needs. For an example, internet and computer games has stopped many people from connecting to one another. We could not see our friend's face, hear their voice or laugh at their funny behaviors. People are so isolated that when they meet somebody, they could not be themselves. Fast food and instant food has stopped us from making food for ourselves where when we forget how to serve ourselves, we would too forget how to serve or help other people. Many of the students download movies or shows in the internet at home that they forget how it is like to spend time with their friends in sports and cinemas. And with the ability to get all the best quality goods, it reach to a point where people treat a good quality goods as something normal. For a good quality fruit juice or soft drinks, we get to get what we want that those things became like our drinking waters. And as a result we couldn't experience many good things that is available. Food are extra large and better quality in Melbourne compared to Malaysia. Each time when we buy food outside, it is like drowning ourselves with so much food that it is hard for us to enjoy food anymore. As for the developing countries, i read an article about malaysia where someone described that malaysian hawker food is not a gourmet food. But it really satisfy them pretty much.

Advancement of technogy has empowered the life of a human being. We need to remember how it is like to live as a human being. The advancement of technology has given us too much that we choke all the materialistic things. Living a simple life would be a start for us to enjoy life as well as remember people are important in our lives.